There are times I wonder if this site is anything more than a digital headstone. Something that exists only to remind those of us who knew him so breifly, that Aiden was a part of our lives, and still is. I wonder if I should just shut down the comments and let the site stay as it is. But then I look at the comments that people have left and realize, that this site is not only for us, but the people who come across it, frequently by accident.

If this site brings comfort to another person, whether by showing someone who has lost a child that they are not alone, or by reminding someone who has a child, how precious that child is, it's all worth it.

Thank you to everyone who has commented on this site and taken a moment to remember Aiden, and to think about the love of your own families a bit. Please know that we take comfort too, in knowing we're not alone. People sometimes say that the internet depersonalizes us, but through this site, I have felt connections with people I have never met, and probably never will.

Aiden, you're still bringing meaning to my life. I love you.

Today is  Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness day again. Now, we're on both sides of that. We have lost a pregnancy, and an infant. The pain of each is still real, the wound never heals, merely scabs over some. It doesn't take much to tear that scab away. If you know someone who has lost a child, before or after birth, let them know you remember and think of them. They need to know.

I haven't posted in a while. It's hard to think of things to share with those of you who may read this, that I haven't already said. We still miss Aiden. His lamb still sleeps in our bedroom. We've visited his grave several times. It's a beautiful cemetary, and he has good company there. It seems like life goes in cycles for me. Every now and then, thing change. When they do it seems like many things change at once. I think one of those times may be happening again. I've thought that before and been wrong though. I spent Father's Day on the road, which helped I think. Pretty much the only person I had to talk to all day was Nicole. Mother's day almost hurts more.

The photos link works again. All the photos are back up. I'll try to get pictures from the memorial service and cemetary up too.

I miss you Aiden. And I love you.

A few people have asked us if we are planning on doing anything for Aiden's birthday. We would like to ask that anyone who feels like they would have given Aiden a birthday present, and who is able to, purchase a new toy to donate to Toys for Tots (or another similar group). Although Aiden will not be able to play with the toys, it would be great if someone is able to have some joy that they might have otherwise missed. We have decided that we will be making an age-appropriate donation each year in Aiden's honor.

At my door the leaves are falling
A cold wild wind has come
Sweethearts walk by together
And I still miss someone